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LYN / 30 / GERMAN-TURK / GMT+2 / ANTI-AI
0 . DISCLAIMER. German mythology is very dear to my heart. I grew up with stories about the Varian Disaster and the likes of Siegfried Dragonslayer and while there aren't many written documents on German mythology similar to the likes of th Prose Edda, I do draw inspiration from whatever sources I can find. Using the Prose Edda of course comes with some very specific caveats: one) there are differences between Norse mythology and German mythology (and you'll find that I might use German names for gods that are frequently known by their Norse names, e.g. Wotan/Wodan vs Odin), and two) Snorri was Christian and his storytelling of old mythology is done through a very Christian lense that historically helped normalise Christian belief in a still significantly non-Christian society. All of this to say: take whatever I ramble about with a grain of salt. I'm a biologist, not a historian.
Additionally: Moa does not identify herself as any existing ethnicity. There'll be times she says she's Norman-French, there might be times she says she's Icelandic or German. I've thus entirely taken out any mention of ethnicity. Her nationality depends on the universe we write in. She's a foreigner essentially anywhere she goes. Her lack of ethnic affiliation is a very personal aspect of my storytelling and depending on the context, it might be more or less central to her behaviour in her story.I . INSPIRATION. Moa started out as a Vikings original character. Ever since the release of Vikings in 2013, she's grown into an enigma I love exploring through a particularly fatalistic and fanatical lense. My preferred genres are high fantasy, science fiction, and gritty, slightly supernatural crime, so that's where I default to writing her. But I can probably make anything else work too! Let me work with you, I love coming up with new perspectives for settings I have not considered before.II . (UN)FOLLOWING. I usually follow back quickly, depending on how busy I am with life. If I follow, it means I want to interact with you: feel free to skip the awkward bits and directly come yell at me about your muse! I softblock when I no longer see any potential for interaction and similarly, prefer being soft-blocked over unfollowed (not a necessity!)
III . TRIGGERS. Due to the nature of subjects I write, I will not tag general mentions of violence and death. If graphically described, I will tag the content with [trigger] cw / and you're free to tell me what to tag via ask without me posting it publicly. Content that is not safe for work is tagged as nsft / and I ask you to please tag pregnancy for me ( pregnancy / suffices! ) I also very, very seldom ever write any threads related to pregnancy and default to no pregnancy plots for the most part. Exceptions to this are usually close friends whom I've talked to extensively before.
As for what content may be present on this blog and earn me the general 21+ rule, I frequently discuss: death, madness, coercion, addiction, sexual assault as part of character backstories, miscarriage, war, and generally unhealthy relationships. There's frequent imagery of consumption in relation to vampirism, verging on cannibalism comparisons. I do not reblog violent imagery. Please curate your dashboard to be a comfortable place for you! I will do the same.

IV . SHIPPING. I'm a sucker for writing any kinds of relationships and exploring dynamics in different settings and under different circumstances. I also absolutely encourage you to tell me directly whether you want to plot out a ship or start with something pre-established, I can assure you that I'm usually always down for anything and just extremely suck at bringing it up. Please know however that while I am always absolutely down for writing romance, I also encourage plotting platonic relationships! In the same breath, I also enjoy sharing mutuals and the same "friend groups" in character, allowing for more world-building and in-depth plotting.
V . MEMES. Memes are taken as prompts for starters and the response placed in a new text post to make the transformation of the meme into a thread easier. They are intended for responding but you obviously don't have the obligation to. I consider them read when you give them a little heart. Likewise, I tend to send multiple memes if I feel like it and will not expect of you to answer them all. It gives variety! Options to choose from! Please also don't hesitate to send memes that hint at pre-established relationships: we don't have to have written before in order to test the waters. Essentially any thread can be viewed in isolation if you want to keep it experimental.VII. ACTIVITY. Man, I can be slow. I thought I would be slow when I was graduating from university but now that I have a full-time job, I am even slower. I will try to do my best to make things run smoothly from my side and I'm really an approachable person (I hope), but please forgive me if a take some days to respond to your messages. I might use the queue, I might not. I can reassure you, though, I'm not quite the machine I used to be so I probably won't spam your dash with ten replies in a row.VI . FORMATTING. To keep it short and simple: I use small text with the occasional big emphasise, I use italics liberally, and I exclusively write in third person. (I also exclusively like receiving responses in third person.) I'm a bit more flexible about the tense, my default used to be past tense, now I'm fairly frequently using present tense too. Format your reply however you wish, I'll enjoy it either way!VII . ADULT CONTENT. Last but not least, I am both of age (born 1996) and enjoy writing erotica. I will not under any circumstances write smut with anyone below the age of eighteen (including the muse) and feel most comfortable with those above the age of twenty-one. I tag my smut but usually do not put it under a readmore. Ships are not required for writing smut, either. Moa's an adult woman with a fairly active sex life, she's probably got plenty of one-night stands.
DISCORD : UPON REQUEST
AT THE BEGINNING OF TIME, we are taught, there was the ice of Niflheimr and the fire of Múspell, and in between the ice and the fire, lay the Yawning Void ginnungagap. Nothing inside of it, the space between fire and ice completely empty until a well in Niflheimr overflew and poured rivers down into the abyss; and in the abyss, the first primordial being was born. Ymir, from whose limbs the first Jötnar grew. He slept and sweated from the fires underneath, the story continues, and when he did not sleep, he drank from the milk of the primordial cow Auðumla. Auðumla ate the rime born from the very same river and while doing so, licked free the ancestor of all æsir, Búri. Búri fathered a son and the son fathered the three gods Óðinn, Vili and Vé. Óðinn, Vili and Vé killed Ymir for he was evil and so were all his descendants, and the blood that poured out of Ymir's body created a flood that killed off all Jötnar except two. Ymir's corpse, the three gods took to the centre of the ginnungagap. There, they turned his flesh into the earth, his bones into the mountains, and his blood into the sea. His skull, separated from his body and held up by the four dwarves Norðri, Suðri, Austri, and Vestri, they turned into the sky with sparks of Múspell's fire to form the stars and the moon.
From Ymir's eyelashes, the three æsir formed a prison to keep out the hostility of the surviving Jötnar and called the fortification Miðgarðr, the Middle Earth. As they found driftwood on the shore, they gave it spirit, sense, and blood, and so the first human man and the first human woman were born, their names Ask and Embla. But the rivers of Élivágar still poured and slithered and as they had born Auðumla and Ymir, they could bear life again when a new cycle began.As with all myths, humankind only knows what has been written by man, never by woman. Life begins not in a limb, but a womb. Búri was not at all that different from Ymir, but Ymir was a primordial woman. He despised her as man tends to do, envied her for the gift of life. His sons inherited his hatred and did what man's offspring has always done: they killed the woman and created a male god, the All-Father, the God-King, Óðinn.
The origin of Moa Zhao lies exactly there, in the last wails of a dying woman, a primordial woman, and the blood that birthed her the moment that Ymir died. She lives on forever, with the water of the Élivágar in her veins, never truly killed, always reborn for as long as life exists.
BASICS & APPEARANCE
Name. Moa, from mōdēr, the Proto-Germanic word for mother; frequently goes by Moa Liu Iðunn Zhao - and though she has many names and many titles, most of which have been lost to time, Moa is a consistent name throughout many, many centuries. Others include Gennadiy Zakharchenko (mostly between the 1920s and 1970s) and Manon D'Aubigné (most notably used in the 16th century)
Apparent age. her legal documentation usually suggests somewhere in her 30s, but it's difficult to discern her age from her looks; exactly how old she actually is, remains unclear, though it's certain that she is at least several thousand years old; on the very rare occasion, she'll mention that she once used to celebrate in midwinter when a friend complains about her not having a birthday
Sex. Female, androgynous
Sexual orientation. Bisexual (openly)
Dating preferences. dominant, polyamorous, seldom monogamous
Faceclaim. Élodie Yung
Voice. A warm, authoritative alto with the ability to mimic accents and dialects; is a polyglot and able to speak seemingly most known languages; capable of polyphony
Hair. Dark brown
Eye colour. Fully black with no visible difference between pupil and iris
Height and build. Described as very tall and slender, she appears almost elvish and sexless
Dominant hand. Ambidextrous, but prefers to carry her weapons on her left side (speaking of: in any modern settings, she carries a gun when required by her profession; her preferred weapons in general are paired knives)Moral alignment. True neutral
Fears. Large fires, ravens, isolation
Political. Authoritarian
Religion. Old Germanic religion
Education. Initially self-educated, seeks out education throughout the following millennia; a list of her degrees in modern settings would be exhaustive and most of them would not be relevant (out-dated), but she tends to try and adapt to the fast-changing world around her
Drugs. Frequently, prone to addiction during depressive episodes; indulges in frequent alcohol drinking
Skin. Warm olive, eerily smooth with no blemishes or texture and very cold to the touch
Modifications. Several piercings (multiple on ears, belly button, nipples), frequently seen with runes painted on skin
Attire. Often seen in neutral tones, beads in her braided her, and with intricate jewellery; inspiration can be found here and here
Smell. Full headcanon here; blackcurrant, beetroot, patchouli; frequently smells very green due to working in her garden so oftenLanguages. All. She is understood when she wants to be understood; those with natural potential can communicate with her telepathically, this is seldom ever initiated by her however and she will reject the idea unless the pre-existing relationship is quite close
MBTI. The Commander; efficient, strong-willed, and strategic, but also dominant, intolerant, and emotionally distant
DIET. Plant-based, might label it 'vegetarian', mostly self-sufficient; ironically, this is paired with a strong affection for hematophagy
ARTS. She plays the lute, harp, and flute; very much a fan of paintings but does not produce them herself, and she's extremely reluctant to sing

FAMILY
the following information is to some extent
verse-dependent; I am highly affiliated with @bak3rs, @eiiidetic, and @resnare/@peerkiller. Anything with a ⁺ refers to a dynamic exclusive to the Fall of the Cabal verse originating on Discord
Adoptive parents. exclusively formal on paper, and only in modern (starting 19th century) settings; Nick & An Zhao †
Siblings (not related). Leroy Jethro Gibbs, Greg Rhodes; both of which she served in the Navy with
Significant other. Dima Weigand⁺
Adoptive children. all of whom are already adults and have moved out; Ephraim Salomon †, Hamad Jamil Zhao, Theodore Wells, Miras⁺, Dawn⁺, and Jonas Zhao⁺ (the latter three are children she has with Dima⁺)
Godchildren. Peter & Kathryn Bishop, Kelly Gibbs †, Elenore Gibbs, Kelly Wells, Leni⁺, Morgan⁺, & Atticus Phelps⁺
Vampire offspring. Dagny Talbot, Christopher Hargrave, Maverick Lowe
SIDE MUSES
require plotting
Christopher R. Hargrave (George MacKay), male, vampire, original character.
⟶ in any setting, Moa is Christopher's maker and it always happens against his will. Depending on what verse we're in, it also happens against her own. He's the first mentee she takes on after centuries of eschewing teaching.
Theodore Wells (Timothy Olyphant), male, human, original character.
⟶ Theo is Moa's foster son in any verse and a single-ship muse created by and for @bak3rs.
Leroy Jethro Gibbs (Mark Harmon), special agent, male, human, NCIS.
⟶ my portrayal of Jethro is largely canon-divergent for the sole reason that I took him on as Elenore's father; again, he's created by and for @bak3rs. I will only write him with mutuals of @bak3rs.
Patricia Matheson (Anna Torv), female, human, original character.
⟶ Elenore's mother, and only written with @bak3rs at this point and possibly indefinitely; in any universe where she survives into Elenore's adulthood, she remains institutionalised
VERSES
Modern. Moa Zhao is a federal agent specialised in counter-terrorism and leads a unit at the president's direct command. Based on a plotline written in a rp group on discord and highly affiliated with @bak3rs and @eiiidetic, she investigates the Cabal, a powerful secret government with the aim of population control. It's suitable for any regular threads and subtly supernatural, the X-Files/Fringe sort of settings that allow for some eerie, unbelievable speculations on the existence of non-terrestrial and non-human intelligence. For a little more information on some Cabal details (though perpetually being worked on), refer to this carrd and feel free to ask questions! Additionally: the plotting-exclusive Stargate verse is an extension of the modern verse and introduces the Sun Cult of Atoum. The verse is not ship-exclusive but any threads specifically referring to plot lines established with Elenore Wells and Emily Rhodes include Moa's marriage to Dima Weigand, belonging @resnare.
Dune. There was a place once, called Earth, long before the Butlerian Jihad. Mankind inherited this place and in its greed and disregard for any other live, destroyed it. Somewhere along the way, mankind created artificial intelligence ― because life had become unbearable and incomprehensible. Man had started with enslaving others and then had begun to enslave itself, and in hopes of finding freedom in a lack of thinking, had created machines to take on the role of man while man could be something else. The Butlerian Jihad forced man to think again, to return to its nature. But not everyone could; mankind divided itself into human and animal. Moa, mother, was the first to attempt saving what did not want to be saved ― and from that effort, the Bene Gesserit were born, an order of religious mysticism that begun the search for the Kwisatz Haderach. But the first Reverent Mother Superior left the order just when it started taking shape: because the fundamental nature of the observer is to watch. And she would, and she would wait, until the Shortening of the Way.
WoT. Her existance is irrelevant to the weaves of the Wheel. She is a primordial force, older than the Forsaken, perhaps even comparable to the Dark One. She does not intervene unless the Pattern tells her to, and until Rand al'Thor is born and with him the return of Lews Therin Telamon, she sits in the uninhabitable dunes of Termool where not even the Aiel dare to go. She cannot save lives the Wheel has not permitted to be saved and she watches, endlessly, as the ages come and go ― though occasionally, something or someone may persuade her to leave the dunes and enter the realm of civilisations. She's lonely after all, and a lonely god is a god to be feared for he is desperate enough to imitate man.Remedy. Established with and ship-exclusive to @candidated, Moa is a paranatural presence of unknown motivation. Work in progress.
Theo and Pattie were originally conceptualised by the wonderful @bak3rs and belong to her, I'm just honoured to have adopted and started writing them.
THEO WELLS
(request only)
Name. Theodore "Theo" Hunter Wells; known among his peers in the military as Ghost
Date of birth. June, 3rd. 1982
Sex. male
Sexuality. bisexual; not necessarily closeted but it plays no role in his day to day life, he's happily married to his wife and entirely monogamous (single-ship)
Faceclaim. Timothy Olyphant
Hair. Brown, greyed
Eye colour. Grey
Height. 6’5’’, lanky but with muscle definition
Dominant hand. Right-handed
Skin. Fair, with a dent on his left eyebrow (born with) and scars on his legs and backAttire. Typically always wears a stetson, very country-style wardrobe, often in muted tonesParents. Arlo Julian Wells and his late wife Lynette †, but Theo's memories of his mother aren't the sharpest anymore; was eventually adopted by Moa Zhao
Siblings. Has a sister named Anastasia and an older brother named Clive he doesn't remember, both significantly older than him and estranged
Spouse. Elenore Margaret Wells, née Gibbs
Children. Kelly and Theo Wells (with Ellie)
PATTIE MATHESON
(request only)
Name. Patricia "Pattie" Liane Matheson
Date of birth. tba
Sex. female
Sexuality. heterosexual, never married
Faceclaim. Anna Torv
Hair. Dirty-blonde
Eye colour. Blue
Height. 5'7'' and thin, not quite as athletic as she used to be when she was younger
Dominant hand. Right-handed
Skin. FairAttire. Anything goes as long as it's comfortable, often jeans ad simple shirts; really likes the colour blueParents. Alvin and Margaret "Maggie" Matheson
Siblings. A twin brother named Benjamin, an older brother, and a younger sister
Children. Elenore Margaret Matheson
CHRISTOPHER HARGRAVE
(request only)
Name. Christopher Robin Hargrave; also known as Christopher Robin Phelps, particularly in the exclusive verse with @bak3rs and @eiiidetic
Date of birth. April, 7th. 1980
Sex. male
Sexuality. closeted bisexual; he portrays himself as heterosexual and the only homosexual relationship he ever has is with Maverick Lowe; he does not react well to being called bisexual
Faceclaim. George MacKay, Andreas Pietschmann (only for the exclusive verse)
Hair. dirty-blonde
Eye colour. blue, later green
Height. 6’2’’, lean but muscular
Dominant hand. Right-handed
Skin. Fair, with a deep scar on his right hand's palm, belt scars on his back, several duelling scars on his face (ref. Andreas Pietschmann in 1899); tattoos are highly verse-dependent.Attire. Typically wears comfortable but reasonably elegant clothes, the colour scheme is muted but he adapts to what his lovers like on himParents. Howard and Susan Hargrave †
Siblings. Has a five-year-younger brother named Jacob, has a foster sister named Carmen Saldaña
Spouse. Emily Rhodes in the exclusive Cabal verse, otherwise unmarried
Children. Leni, Morgan, and Atticus Phelps (with Emily); possibly a child with Elenore Gibbs (unverified)
The first occurrence of a vampire as described in European literature traces back to man named Jure Grando Alilović who lived in the small town of Istria, modern-day Coratia. Sickness took him, but for sixteen more years after his death, he roamed the town of Kringa, terrorising its people and raping his wife until finally, a villager sawed off his head. From then on, vampirism was included into Christian mysticism,. Why do vampires drink blood? How come they wither when they cannot feed on human flesh? Perhaps because the blood that infects them is borrowed and degrades. Like a parasite, it feeds on the host’s blood cells until none are left and then begins to eat the host from the inside, forcing whoever suffers from the infection to seek out other victims that may satiate what lurks beneath. And it all leads back to her: Mother. A little of her blood heals wounds. A lot enslaves.

“The world changes, we do not, therein lies the irony that kills us.”
― Anne Rice, Interview with the Vampire
NPCs
Willem Grim (Colin Morgan), police officer, male, nix, original character.
Kua Hale (Keanu Reeves): Lawyer, male, vampire, original character.

Moa Zhao
Raymond Reddington
Elizabeth Milhoan